I don't know how many of you felt this dilemma in life. I have been through this ordeal time and again. An ordeal to find my 'Identity', an ordeal to understand 'who am I?', an ordeal to ask myself, "where did I go wrong?", "Why did I have to go through so much of suffering for being sincere and devoted?" and finally," why am I being misunderstood?"

I belong to an educated family and we lived in a good city in India. I was not exposed to the crude and raw life style of villages. That does not mean I ever had any arrogance or hang ups about mingling with any one. I was simple and god-fearing in my bringing up and approach yet educated with progressive outlook. I treated everyone with respect. As circumstances changed and I was forced to step out of my comfort zone and a close circle of limited friends, the reality dawned. Those people whom you love unconditionally start scrutinizing you microscopically until they find some imaginary faults and then suddenly they want to convince themselves and you that there is huge difference in the bringing up and that your thinking is faulty!

What an irony! Can someone tell me how to deal with this situation? I have been trying hard to tell myself but I failed! Is it my fault that I was groomed in a sophisticated manner? Is it my fault that I fell in love with someone unconditionally? Is it my fault that I am being told all this after spending six years during which my whole life started to revolve around someone? Help me...tell me...what is my fault? What did I do wrong? Do I listen to, " I am dumping you because now, I have realized that your thinking is not clear and its bad.." and quietly digest it without even retaliating? Who am I? What does a person want? My father had once told me, " value the person who loves you.Never let that person go away." But what if on giving unconditional love and support, one is not even being given enough time for justification of insulting treatment and changed behavior?

What is right?

What is wrong?

Where did I go wrong?

What is my fault?

What happened?

This quest has just begun...